Tuesday, February 07, 2006
today at sociology class we learnt about deviance and control.
contrary to popular belief, deviance is not necessarily a bad thing,
it just means that it is an act/behaviour that is not part of the norm.
but then who determines what is considered normal in the first place-
as i've discovered through the course, it's almost always about power relations and interests.
a tad bit depressing and it seems all pointless trying when you know the result will be the same regardless.
so maybe you know that deviance can connote something heroic or noble,
but does it really help if the rest of society doesn't or refuses to accept this point?
it just got me thinking about perspectives and just how tricky this can all be.
and isn't a white-collared crime even more morally wrong than a petty crime committed by some homeless guy off the street struggling to keep alive?
i find it so unfair that society tends to demonize the lower class and go all hush-hush about the many frauds that exist in this highly material capitalist world of ours.
it's all so fucking screwed up it's making me mad,
and the worst part is, that we're all in this sick game and i'm not even making half an effort to do something about it.
maybe i should, but how do i fight the system?
sigh sigh sigh. all talk no action. that pisses me off.
i hate myself sometimes.
speaking of which, i generally do not love or hate myself,
on good days, i am glad i'm me.
on other days as today, i hate my guts and my indecisive nature.
today i took the initiative.
and today i think i finally found a name to attach to this mysterious entity that may or may not exist in this weirdness we call a "casual relationship".
and today i finally realised that the problem all along is, that i'm just not strong enough.
wai * 9:04 PM *